One area of the Christian doctrine that I've never really truly grasped is the trinity. The word "trinity" appears in the Bible a grand total of zero times in the King James version, the New International Version, the New American Standard version, the Message, the Modern English Translation, the New King James version, .... you get the idea.
The doctrine of the trinity wasn't even established until the fourth century. So for all of the purists who believe that nonbelievers of the trinity are doomed to hell, well, that's four hundred years of damned souls. Sorry. Don't get me wrong here - I know what the trinity is, but I've always had a hard time swallowing it. The whole notion of the trinity is that The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are not the same entity, and yet at the same time they are the same entity, namely, God.
I was taught the trinity at a very young age - I remember talking about it when I was about eight years old. I didn't understand it then because it just didn't make any sense. I thought back then, "how could something both not be the same thing and yet be the same thing at the same time?" Now that I've read the Bible several times over, I still don't understand it. There are many verses that stand out and and suggest that, while being divine in nature, Jesus not the same being as God, but is totally the son of God.
- 1 Timothy 2:5: "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus"
- John 14:28: "You heard me say, 'I am going away and I am coming back to you.' If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I."
- John 17:3: "Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent."
- John 5:19: "I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does."
- Matthew 27:46: "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?"
- John 17:20-23: "My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me."
There are several more verses that seem to somewhat contradict the whole notion of the trinity. But on the other hand, there are several verses that directly support the notion of the trinity. The most popular, of course, is Matthew 28:19. Then there's the really confusing John 8:58. And Colossians 2:9 confirms the divine nature of Jesus.
So what is a Christian to believe? Personally, I believe that Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit are all divine, but they are not the same being. Does that mean I'm polytheistic? No. I believe in the one God. But Jesus is the son of God, begotten by God in God's perfect image, which suggests that Jesus is subordinate to God and perhaps didn't even exist before he was begotten.
I'm obviously not the only one struggling with this concept. It has been a controversial subject among Christians for nearly two millennia now. The great theologian Arius didn't believe in the trinity. ‘If the Father begat the Son, he that was begotten had a beginning of existence: and from this it is evident, that there was a time when the Son was not. It therefore necessarily follows, that he had his substance from nothing.’ This line of reasoning seems to goes against John 8:58, but I completely agree with Arius' beliefs.
Entire sects have completely rejected the notion of the trinity. Jehova Witnesses, although a bit wacky, are on to something in this area. Mormons don't believe in the trinity - they believe, and I got the same thing when I read these passages, that when Jesus says "The father and I are one", that Jesus meant "one in purpose", or "one in nature." I'm not familiar with the native languages, so I cannot vouch for that position other than to say it seems that way on the surface. The Quaran completely denounces the trinity. Etc.
Just because I struggle with the trinity concept doesn't mean I'm not a Christian. I love God with all of my heart, mind, and soul. I try to praise Jesus in everything I do. I see God's beauty in everything around me.
If anyone has a bullet-proof defense of the Trinity, I'd be interested to read it. I'd love to see how trinitarians cover the verses mentioned here along with several other controversial verses that seem to contradict the notion of the trinity. And I'd love to finally be able to grasp the paradox of two entities both not being the same entity while simultaneously being the same entity.